tulips and kangaroo's.

Gosh, it's already the 24th day into the new year and already so much has happened. I can't believe everything that has transpired. I tried to do that 30 day thing but I changed my mind, it was weird to have to sit down and blog about some random thing. It's crazy how I've grown up in 24 days, and how much I'm going to grow in this new year with all my new choices and new lifestyle changes. It's all just mind blowing.

Sometimes I wish I knew God's plan for me. Some of the obsitcles he throws in my way really get to me, but I know that he has a reason to do it all. But, I mean come on a sneak peak wouldn't be so bad so I knew what to prepare for. I have all the faith in the world that whatever he put in front of me is there for a purpose but some times I wonder if i'm strong enough to handle everything. I am only human, even though some times I forget that and try to be super human.

I really don't like the end of January because it's my grandma's birthday and it just goes to show me how much I miss her and how I never spent the most time with her that I could. You never know what you got until it's gone, right? I think about her a lot and I know that in heaven she is happier and all that but dang, her family down here misses her so much. What I would give to see her again and hug her one more time.

Everything moves so fast sometimes and I just don't understand it some times. It's all heart breaking. I just wish sometimes I can sit back, slow time down, and just enjoy things. The good times seem to fly by when as the harder times seem to stick around for a while. I guess everything is a balancing act that I am honestly no good at. Some times I wonder why certain things happen, then I have to go back and think ' It's part of the plan.'

I guess in times of distress instead of cussing and doing something stupid and regretful, I should pick up my bible, stop and smell the tulips, and trust that everything happens for a reason. I know that I have the best pilot in control of my life and I should just let him control everything while I enjoy my first class seat with peanuts and a soda. "Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us." Psalms 62;8.


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